I could not cry
see
know
feel
desire
realize
I could not be
The only thing I can do,
is forgive you.
You locked all my senses in a golden cage.
Nobody knew. Nobody.
Not even me.
You're prisoned in your own
thoughts, feelings, wishes and expectations.
You can only understand me if you
unlock yourself and try, try and try.
There is a thing you call honesty
But there is also a thing like modesty.
I'm afraid these things are hardly
known, used or believed.
The only thing I can do,
is forgive you.
Do what you want. Say what you want to say.
But I'll keep cherishing my pillow of dreams.
Wherever I go, wherever I am.
It will stay in my fourth little room,
waiting for a gentle key to come.
You ruined your chances.
Blew them away like sand in my eyes.
But now there is no sand left for me to give.
You'll never capture the true meaning of my words,
because yours are thoughtless.
To be honest,
I hate you.
I despise you.
You disgust me.
I don't even want to
be near,
see or
hear you.
I just want you to disappear in the fog
on the other side of the world.
So I don't have to waste one more tear
because of you.
You just ain't worth it anymore.
If you only see your pain,
you will keep falling.
Down and down.
Until Justice will appear.
And I'm sure It will.
Because I'm not going to save
your soul.
But for now,
you're just a scene
with no curtains
The only thing I can do,
is forgive you.
(3 mei 2006)