Grenade shards
Standing alone on the battlefield
Watching the life’s that where taken by counting the bodies
The war is over the peace is back
The relief and joy of a new future are here
But inside my heart the sadness remains
Bad memories
Things I did wrong
All the mistakes I commit all the sins I can’t forget
Like grenade shards stuck in my breast
I am the only one left standing on
This battlefield called life
Picking the grenade shards out of my body
Every thorn out of my eye
Every sword out of my heart
Every knife out of my back
I did what I thought was right
I did what I had to do to survive
I made my choices but still
I keep looking back
Playing everything over in my head
My body goes forward but my mind goes back
I went on a journey to find my release
To find a way to heal my mind
So I can let my worries rest in peace
Not thinking every second what I have done
And not being angry again when I don’t feel so well
I need to escape out of my personal hell
Picking the grenade shards out of my body
Every thorn out of my eye
Every sword out of my heart
Every knife out of my back
So one night the answer in a bright light came to me
And it was finally so clear to me
All I had to do was changing the colour of my shades
And welcome positive thoughts to live inside my head
Instead of the demons; like pets I kept
Walking forward physically, mentally and socially
By every step I take; new persons on the horizon awake
While I’m on track to my new life and future
I pick the grenade shards forever out of my life