I am smiling because I'm sad
I am dancing because I feel fat
I am drinking because I feel bad
No one knows I'm just living the perfect lie
Then I'm sitting in my room, alone
I'm just dreaming of a life
Where my body is no more then bones
I;m rejecting all thoughts of cutting
I'm rejecting all thoughts of suicide
Just want to fade away to nothing
Light another sigarette
I hope it helps me dying
When I realize it won't happen
I'll just start crying
I'm smiling, I'm laughing
I'm dancing, I'm loving
But behind closed doors
You'l see me crying
Cause deep inside
I'm dying.