How can I accept.
How can I accept,
a love that cannot grow.
I push you away,
even when I need you the most.
The love I have for you is all I've got.
There's no escape from you.
I want to run, run from this torture,
run away from you.
But I stay,
in the hope things will improve some day.
Your answer is all I think about,
it's all I know now, all I want to know,
all I need to know.
But the pain hurts,
I feel it in every little part of my body.
It's real and it's lasting a lifetime.
It feels like you let me down,
broke my heart, tossed me aside
and left me alone to survive.
You still want to be friends and sometimes
I've been such a bitch to you.
But that is just a way to try to forget you.
But I never meant to hurt you,
didn't mean to let you down.
These stumbling blocks were to many,
I tripped and I'm sorry.