You turn on the music out loud
So no one hears you scream and shout
No one would hear you crying
When you wish that you were dying
And you hate your life
That is why you take the knife
And push it into your skin
Just to kill the pain within
You only want to see your blood
It feels nice to see it flood
Self-injury makes you stay
It helps you through the day
Your life is fallen apart
It truly breaks your heart
You scream out your pain
Because no one feels the same
Deep inside, your soul is torn
You wish you were never born
You can't live this life any longer
Every day the pain gets stronger
No one understands the way you feel
Everybody thinks it's so unreal
But you know the pain you feel inside
You know how many tears you cried
You cried just too many tears
And you've hidden them for years
You were only crying at night
Only you who's fighting this fight
And now you only want to bleed
Want to throw out everything you eat
You only want to cut up your skin
You just want to be thin
The tears slide along your face
You're longing for just one embrace
But no one's there, you're alone
To the world, your problem is unknown
Nobody knows what?s going on in your head
Nobody knows how many tears you shed
But you want the world to know
Everything that happened some time ago
This is why you made this choice
To let everybody hear your voice
But don?t you think this is the wrong way?
Do you really want to fade away?
You turn on the music out loud
So no one hears you scream and shout
No one would hear you crying
It hurts so much when you're dying
~ February 10, 2006 ~