Dear Marijn,
Two years later
I'm still thinking of you
It's two years ago
I'm still missing you
Our first meeting, I still remember
And all conversations we had
I cannot forget them
You were there when I was sad
Like every girl at school
I was secretly in love
You're so sweet and fine
Even now as an angel above
Two years ago, everyone cried
You were the laugh at school
And even when it was boring
You made that place look real cool
At school, that boring place
To me you were my best friend
And when we had fewer contact
Your life had to end
You gave me three kisses
When we celebrated my birthday
But a half year later
You took your life away
Suicide isn't a way out
I remember you told me
But it was a way out for you
Maybe it set you free
Already two years ago
I never asked myself why
Maybe I had to know you better
But we had to say goodbye
I blame myself
For being blind
You had all the signs
But I didn't mind
It ain't my fault
But I wish I was there for you
Because I do care
And I was depressive too
You were there when someone needed you
Why didn't you talk when you needed someone?
If you did talk to somebody
You might not be gone
Dear Marijn, I'll never forget you
I'll never throw away the memories
But now I have to leave
Dear friend, Rest in Peace
Love, Annika
~ October 29, 2004 ~