Untitled --- 22/02/2006 --- 18:49 uur
Thinking at night
Having struggles in this fight
My thoughts run through my mind
I thought I left those insecure feelings behind
I’m afraid I will never be the same me
These feelings just don’t let me be
They’re digging their way in
I really don’t want them to win
But they take control
Leaving behind a big black hole
I’m supposed to be strong
But I don’t like this life’s song
It’s keeping me behind and stuck
Keeping me away from luck
I know I should love what I do
And I know I should say “thank you”
All I can say is that I feel sad
A little more depression to add
When will all this finally go?
I’ve had enough of it, you know
It seems I can’t get rid of myself
Except if you kill yourself
Angry voices towards me
Telling me they don’t agree
I am getting so tired of being this way
Everyday waiting for the end of the day
Hoping to find peace
And hoping my struggles will finally cease
Cease to exist
Because I’m totally getting pissed
Whatever I do, it’s never getting better...