I’m doing fine, but for how long? - 19/11/2005 - 23:53 uur
Darkness is closing in again
This is not where I should have been
Voices whispering to me
Telling me how I should be
No, this was not what I had in mind
Fuck, how could I have been so blind?
Thinking that I would be okay
And feeling that I love this world, so to say
It will never be easy for me
Not now, not in the future to be
Never knowing how I will feel
Never knowing if I will finally heal
And beat this difficult disease
That brings me down to my knees
When I’m happy I feel great
But when I feel lost it’s too late
Too late to heal myself
Too late to be yourself
Just when I start feeling fine
The sun stops to shine
The minute I walk around the corner
Feeling like a foreigner
It seems everything just falls apart
When I finally want to make a new start
Leave my depressing feelings behind
And hoping happy feelings to find
But it’s all an illusion
Only feeling confusion
When I’m finally on the right track
Something comes my way and turns it to black
Still the darkness has his power
Right down to this final hour