Lying here in my bed,
thinking about everything,
my family,
school,
two best friends,
and ofcourse you - the best thing my heart ever desired –
I just dropped two tears,
I guess these were the first since several years
Meaning 5 till 6 years…
I don’t know what they mean…
Well at least at first I didn’t.
Were they tears of a rising friendship,
a wound in my heart
Or the mental pain of the 99th disappointment…
My heart told me it’s going to stop beating and fighting if I get it hurt one more time,
I told it I’ll patch it up again,
like the 98 other wounds,
but it didn’t want to hear it,
enough is enough…
And to make sure I won’t forget it made a big scar on itself,
one that brings pain with it…
I’m trying to fight it,
but it’s hard.
I know I’ll be okay,
that you do like me a lot,
care about me and want the best for me,
that’s the reason why my heart didn’t get a double dagger and isn’t KO.
Except the scar of course…
While these thoughts where/are going true my head,
the second tear reached my lip,
I tasted the salt and sweet flavour…
It made me think even more about you…
All that hope,
whipped away with one tongue stroke…
Splash The tear and the hope where gone…
Maybe for the good,
maybe it wasn’t…
We’ll have to find out…
I do have hope left,
and it can’t be destroyed,
it’s buried deep inside my heart,
underneath the scar and will only come out when the scar heals…
Hope to find the same scar there when you ever feel different…
I don’t know if this makes any sense to you.
I just wrote,
wrote and wrote every single word that came across my mind…
To end this I can only say these words…
I still love you, and I will keep on loving you,
Till my eternal scar heals…
Forever
Auteur: Atyana | ||
Gecontroleerd door: Sunflower | ||
Gepubliceerd op: 20 november 2005 | ||
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