why should i hurry up
for going down i will
a scream of my own, silence breaking bones
one papercup to fill
look carefully to spot the endless fear
a double date, no calender
and christmas must be near
i ordered a life
but changed my mind
too late to get a regular
now this is mine
and every drop of hurt
makes me a little wiser
but i'm afraid
i've had enough
half-way the appetizer