Its cold outside...but also my inside 05.12.2004

I feel all alone,
I don’t belong home
What do I have to do?
Cause it’s all so blue..
This month of the year...
Makes me empty and wants to disapear..
It has to be so nice...
‘Cause everybody gets a surprise...
Well I dont think it’s nice at all...
‘Cause two years ago I got a call
That my father died..
And I have cried...
It’s also the month that the family is togehtter.
Sitting in a warm house because the weather..

It’s cold outside...
But also my inside...
It’s freezing outside...
Also my heart inside...

I feel unsecure..
I dont feel secure...
I have to face it myself,
I have to do it all self.
I feel left alone and i’m so cold..
I wish I had someone to hold.
This feeling is weard..
And I wanned that it disapeard...
We supose to have a happy family,
But we haven’t so it can not be...
That everybody is feeling warm...
And it’s just me who’s standing in the storm
This month is cold as ice...
I don’t think it’s nice...

It’s cold outside...
But also my inside...
It’s freezing outside...
Also my heart inside...

It’s almost chrismastime...
It has to feel so fine..
So nice and so good..
But I’m not in the mood...
I don’t have a nice home right here...
I don’t have anyone who is near...
I don’t want to pretend everything is fine...
‘cause it will break that heart of mine...
Is there just somebody who can take the lonlyness away...
Even if it is just for one single day...

It’s cold outside...
But also my inside...
It’s freezing outside...
Also my heart inside...

i dont i dont i dont... want to pretend.
Not for even one second...
No really not anymore...
Even when that means war...
Between my mother and me...
I just want to be free...

Let me free... let me live...let me love...
But because you are standing in the way...
It just think that all is mean and ruff..
And you know... that isnt okay...

Its cold outside...
But also my inside...
Its freezing outside...
also my heart inside...