when you are here,.
in my thoughts..
my mind never stops thinking
i always think of what i did
what you did
and what we did togetter
don't know why..
don't know how..
do know something..
and that is that i care
about you
about your life
about me in it
about me perhaps becomming your wife
why doesn't this feeling make me glad?
why doesn't this feeling make me happy?
i want to be in a perfect life that doesn't ecist..
i want to life in a perfect world..
but does that make me happy?
does that make me feel good about myself..?
the anwer is no
that doesn't make me glad
that doesn't make me happy
it make me think
about the things i miss in my life that i lead..
it make me think
about the things that aren't there
it make me realise that i have to make an end at this
to make an end of everything that is around me..
don't want to do something to myself..
because i already did something..
that was stupid!
that was lame!
never want to do that again!!
never!
don't want to lose you..!
don't want to miss you!
don't want us to end..!
but it is the best..!
for both of us..!!
focusing on the future..
focusing on the rest of my life..
i'm realy sorry about that knife..
stiking in my skin..
never again! never
lonely..
so lonely without you..