How could this happen?
What have I done,
That this has happened to me?
It’s so painfull…
This is during so long…
Nobody actually knows how I feel…
Shall I tell someone about it,
Or shall I keep it to myself.
What am I afraid of?
Is it for that people know,
In what situation I am?
Or the real (weak) side of myself?
I think it’s both,
I don’t want attention,
So if I talk about it
People will ask, ask and ask about it
And feel compasion with me…
I don’t want that!
I have never showed my real side,
Maybe because,
That they will hurt me at that point.
So for years I have lived like that.
But once a day…
I have met someone,
Who opened the doors for me…
He let me know how life can be…
And to him,
I showed my real side…
I trusted him,
He was someone to trust,
But now….
Oh GOD,
It’s so painfull…
I really tried to leave and be with him,
But I couldn’t do that.
(P.S: If “you” read this, let your stupid mind know what has done to me!!! )