As I Struggle along with my feelings, it becomes clear that I'm losing grip on them. Bit by bit they more rebelion and wanting to let the world know what I feel.
Trying to keep total cortol is driving me insane. çouse my feelings are getting stronger with eatch time we speak, I fear the moment hat I've lost all control over my feelings and I don't know what will happen than
The hard conflict in me between my feelings and control over them is nearing tha end without a clear result of the mental damage it left behind.