Just going in circles
every day
Can't be myself
It feels like rape
Try not to cry
every day
Can't be myself
I feel so fake

Don't want to close my eyes
It makes it hurt more
I could go on crying
but my throat is to sore

I want to give up
but I feels like disappointing you
Don't want to be the loser child
When I look in the mirror that's what I see

I thought I was doing okay
but going to school doesn't
make it easier
the tears just won't stay away

I'm so sorry
I don't want to mess up
I know I did it before
I don't want to say it
That makes it hurt so much
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