I feel weird
Strange feelings I can’t place
I seem empty, but yet so full
And nothing seems to be real these days
Like I’m living another one’s life
I’m just watching, not really living or able to react
Does this all really happen to me?
To myself, I have seem to lost all contact
I’m going to a clinic, but is it really that bad?
Do I have to spend a year in there?
Can I no longer do this on my own?
I don’t know how I should prepare
Within two months I will be called
It all seems so unreal
Then they’ll reflect on the treatment I need
So I can be on my way to heal
I am just so scared of this whole thing
My family, they don’t understand
I seem to live in haze
I have no sense on my own on which I can depend
And spending so long in there
Feeling disconnected to the world outside
Focusing on myself in that period
For my problems, I will not be able to hide
But I know, it is inevitable
And the best and only thing left right now
Cause the ways things are going lately
Just can’t do it alone anymore, and they won’t allow
I’m glad, though it’s all very scary
I need this, and two months, it should be okay
Just have to hold on for a little while
And hope that the clinic will change my way