Tears are burning behind my eyes
I feel blue, even while a Christmas star shines
God? Why didn’t you listen to my prayer?
It’s all I’ve asked from you, but you weren’t there
Weren’t there when I asked you for this single thing
Asked for something, coming from somewhere deep within
I even lit a candle in the church yesterday
But all my little hopes and dreams are driven away
Today I realized, that prayer won’t be fulfilled
Today, my last ray of hope was killed
Now tell me lord, how must I go on
‘Cause believing in You made me for once feel strong
But now that feeling is gone, I am mad
Seeing tears again in her eyes, made me feel sad
Lord! Help us out here.. but I no longer believe
This blessing we did not receive
I have to do it on my own now
But could someone tell me, please, tell me.. how?!
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Tis zo makkelijk om God de schuld te geven, niet? Ik ben katholiek gedoopt maar ik heb een paar jaar geleden het geloof een beetje aan de kant gelegd, later ga ik er wel weer over na denken. Hoe ik erover praat mag eigenlijk niet, het is misschien egoistisch... i don't now.