And I just can't keep doing this...I can't keep getting my hopes up and then see them come crashing down again. It's too much, I can't take this anymore. i'm so sick and tired of being afraid, I'm so sick and tired of crying. I hate myself for always thinking of you, for dreaming about you every single night...It hurts so much to have my heart still skip a beat every time I see you, or see your screen name pop up or even when I hear your name..I hate myself for the fact that I still love you and can't forget you...I can't keep doing this to myself, but it seems I just can't help it...And once again I think about you. Once again I dream about you. Once again, my heart skips a beat. And once again, I cry...