No more --- 03/04/2006 --- 23:02 uur
The self hate is returning
My insides are burning
These thoughts of food won’t let me go
These thoughts I already know
My disease is starting to appear
This things is crawling to me, it’s fear
Fear of getting fat
I don’t want that
My thoughts say I need to eat less
So I don’t get this stress
I hate myself so much right now
Need to mutilate, but how?
I want to close my eyes and never wake
I don’t want to feel this ache
I’m making myself insane
I only want to complain
Angry is what I am
Fuck, I just don’t give a damn
If I would die right now
If you’d only show me how
I still feel fat and I need to lose weight
So I feel great
Everyone’s looking at me
I’m a ship that’s lost at sea
Feelings all around
Leaving me without the ground
Falling deeper and deeper away
Deeper in the circle of depression, I won’t stay!
Why is food such an issue to me?
Leave me free
So many things I’d like to say
Before the end of the day
I’m locked up inside
Access denied
I don’t have the words any more
The only things that’s raging inside me, is war