Agony
I find myself standing in a crowd of strangers,
Unknown faces taller then myself.
Pretending to be enjoying myself,
Pretending I like this faceless crowd.
I shout at friends to get nothing said,
Over the loud music not only ears are dead,
These friends I look up to, because of their size,
I seem not know, and then realize.
They are strangers who's path I've crossed,
And with whom I’ve got no bond, no meaning past.
Only company is what they need me for,
And only that I came here for.
Now all I feel is loneliness,
And I sit down at the bar, longing, for a silent kiss.
I stare across into the room,
Filled with strangers and an eerie gloom.
One girl stands out just like me,
Alone, unknown and able to see,
The sorrow of the full packed bar.
To only meet her eyes and let her know,
I understand her feelings and also want to go,
But our eyes were not meant to meet,
As another drunk falls over my feet.
I pick her up with no respect,
But smile at the beauty I once longed to get.
The focus in her eyes is not so clear,
And my apology she cannot hear.
At last I walk out through the crowd,
Outside into the cold,
Where the moonlit night creeps in his latest hour.
My friends I leave with no excuse,
And I know my coming was of no use.
I walk the path I walked with her...
I feel a tear roll of my face,
My heart now beating a slower pace.
She left a window in my soul,
With her cold actions, she had punched that hole.
No longer does her sight torment my nights,
For the bitch I easily lost out of sight
But still I long for such filled dates,
With a woman in love, and kisses by crumbled gates.
To once more hold a waist so tender,
And look into eyes staring back with splendor,
To feel two hearts in one embrace,
Hearing them find each others pace,
To have someone to wake up for,
The one for who you'll open... any door.
I know she's out there just for me,
And hope she's not going through,
The same Agony.