Inside I'm screaming crying hurting
Outside I'm hurting myself
Silent painful cries for help
I know I shouldn't
I can't stop
The pain takes over
Nothing else fills my head
The storm settles for a minute
All is calm
I'm tempted to go further
I've slashed my legs
I've slashed my arms
What's next? My neck
In the calm a voice calls
A voice I can hardly resist
My fingers tingle
The knife glints in my eyes
Just like a silver sword
I want to I need to do this
End this life of hatred
Exclusion loneliness numbness
I'm not scared
The storm is still but the clouds hover
I plunge the blade in my neck and slide it across
Ripping tearing skin
Pouring blood running freely at last
The clouds have gone
The sky is clear in my head now
The torment is over