Down go my eyes
Into your hazy pools of fear
As they stare blind away
I cannot sense you in there
No word I speak seems to matter
No thought or wisper flees your mind
All you do is blindfold yourself
and it scares me
How much louder do I have to scream before you hear me?
This isn’t about me, and it will never be
Even if I do have something to say, you don’t hear me
Whatever word I say passes through you like the air through the clouds
No
I will not accept
I cannot lose you
But where can I find you?
For you are lost to me
lost in the world, in yourself, in the big nothing…
It all just doesn’t matter
You hear me? I DON’T CARE
I just want you back
And you’re not there
It breaks my heart
Can you not see?
And you are silent
Once more you are blind
Yet again you are hidden
As if it never was any different
I cannot help you out of your darkness like this
Because I stand on the sidelines and shout for you to come to me
But you don’t
You stand alone
Is that a choice you made?
You mustn’t
Because I for one will NOT accept
If I must, and I won’t hesitate, I will intrude your every moment
But right now, I stare
My eyes are empty now, too, and yet speak of sorrow
Why will you not come to me?
Why do you insist on dragging yourself down?
Why do you not stand and fight?
Just when everything seems to have lost it’s point
you should fight the fiercer
And maybe that first fight is the one you have to fight alone
Maybe you have to fight yourself before you can conquer the world
So why won’t you?
Why?
Why is the second half of my heart unwilling to join the other?
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