I’ve been undone of all the reasons,
To watch the sunlight go down like that.
Setting tears seems to be working,,
to get the attention I want.
All my comfort switched ten gears back.
I’ve been throwing up in disgusting pictures,
With four eyes licking the screen
“And my heart explained a dream”
As I could tell from your face,
there wasn’t a spark which felt the breaking
My stomach turn around three times a second.
And while I moved your leg
I felt the tears burning.. Things can be open
But these openness just cuts to deep
He didn’t wipe my tears, or fixed me a forehead kiss.
But when he asked if he could hold me.
I found him taking me back, turning me around.
When hiss arms fell around this shocking body.
I knew I was save again…
Though I burned a part of my dignity that night
Removed a piece of whatever felt so trustfully right
And as I felt so disgusted, I wanted to move,
Remove.. The part that sat there way too long
watching with blind eyes
“Blind Eyed, I Wished”
The long distant walks around this sick making sound
The pure ignorance, without love,
only motion to put up a fight
I’m the only one I would dare to shoot on
With bare feet I wane walk the glasses tonight
“Why didn’t you close your eyes,
took my hand and took me away?”
“He never knew.. ”
“I can’t sleep tonight, I promise.
He never knew, he never will”
It felt so wrong to be so right about these things
a constant reminder of everything I should’ve know before
“Take it back, take it All back”
Is it only me, breaking hearts for such a useless fact?
Or is it them, without hearts
listening to a mind not far removed from insanity?
I think it’s me… the other, strange little girl
Crying over things that should be normal these days.
: With a sad face I turned my eyes against a wall I know better then myself.
Telling the heart I pulled out in pieces.
That wall reads my soul, comforts a broken heart and beholds all my secrets.
It sings me asleep when tears drown my dreams.
It’s truly the only sight I look at with open eyes,,
I’m too fragile to be blind but I wished so badly.
I promised you, I wouldn’t lie, I wouldn’t wish, but I wished so hard for the signal to fail, the glass to break… something to cut it away, something to take over.
I truly lied, I was fine that night.
"Throw Away Your Television”
I’d be delighted Sir… Thanks for listening anyways.
I should be going now, it’s getting late.
That night I felt a teardrop on my heart,
a silent whisper and a kiss on my forehead.
I fell asleep, believing walls could speak…