My deepest regret
To have read your mail
Now I want to forget
Though I know I will fail
To forget "Will you marry me?"
Sentences you once told me
I read you told her as well
The mail is being they key
To what you refused to tell
To say "I'm in love with her now"
Months I have waited
For you to finally realise
She was much overrated
To stop to idealize
Not to say to her "You are perfect"
Now I thought I won you back
But could not possibly be sure
Now I am a wrack
I know there is no cure
Not to "my deepest regret"
Regretting that I know this now
Regretting more that I was right all along
wanting to forget but not sure how
Tried so hard to prove myself wrong
To know "you are not his only love"
Not any act of unfaithfulness
Except for in your heart
Leaving me in loneliness
Thought you were so smart
Every day "I want more privacy"
I wished to prove myself wrong
In the feeling I got replaced
But your words were strong
Wishes that were a waste
Wishing "please baby don't"
But you do feel this for her
My hopes have not mattered
Now my future became a blur
Feelings have shattered
Why did you ask us both
"Will you marry me?"
You say it was only meant as a joke
But my tears ain't laughing
In my tears I will choke
By the pain start caughing
Thinking "Now it truely no longer matters"
Only myself to be angry at
Everything is my own fault
People just think I am a brat
I'll put myself to a halt
Saying "OUCH"
A deeper cut next to the last one
For being so damn dumb
The other girl has won
My mind and wrist go numb
To think "my deepest regret