All I'm Doin Is Sittin on my bed
to let thousands of thoughts run trough my head
what will I do with my future? will I go or will I stay
even now I'm gettin broker every day
So I'm thinkin bout my foe's and how to make em pay
and my thoughts drop on my heart for my girl
I feel another quake tremblin on my own lil world
fuck that thougt and skip it
to my tequila cuz even now I sip it
and I don't need to mix it cuz as it comes from the bottle it's likwit
half drunk sittin in room I'm hearin voices screaming
my fam's at it again and I hope I'm dreaming
all this mental pain dashin on my brain
and I call up my dawg for clarrity in this mist
but he appearantly broke his fist
the same way I did rather fighting a wall then ya mom
and now we in the shop chillin of amnesia from this bong
smoking to forget might be the best thing happend to me since birth
cuz now I'm chocking to death last breath rappin to be leavin earth
but please no one cry when I die
mom and dad with everything you had you tried
to keep me happely and alive so I'd nevah dared to commit suicide
but soon perhaps is gonna be my last ride
cuz I still got some shit to settle here
with some local dealers please no one meddle or interfear
I kill em all take money the green and the white shit
then bail across the border to make life legit
at that time tell my folks thanks for all so long I'll be back
to my dawgz come along I aint wack so don't get me wrong
but if I don't make it
find whats left of me and take it
I was never scared to cry but could
last night I was prepared to and wouldn't
my life's strife and happyness is a lie
so my Lord who even took my wife tell me why?
am I not even allowed to die
and my lord who gave me this loving hatefull famely
how do you expect me to keep on goin trough this remedy
I don't understand at all and can't find the man in me
to handle all this stress
with my angel I used to be blessed
so now I see why, you sayd it wouldn't matter
now I see why, it rains with the baddest wether
Signed
Loco L Lunatic