He only likes me
Shatterd soul
It's something that had to be done,
in order to survive the hell for all these years.
Now, the danger is gone,
all thesse pieces are the cause of my tears.
Somebody who likes me for who I am,
and makes me feel like I have the right to be here in this life.
But the other pieces of me he can't stand,
and they made it possible to survive.
It feels like I am caught between two walls,
and I know where this will have to go.
My shatterd heart has to take another fall,
it's not what I want, but it's for the best, so
I will have to tell him that this has to end,
while I really want to continue seeing him.
Thank him for the nice times that we have spent,
and not show how much he has got under my skin.
Tears, are rolling down my face,
after our talk this afternoon.
Of sadness, they leave a trace,
deep inside I know this will end soon.
If it's not ended by me,
I know it will get too much for this sweet man.
It's best to let eachother free,
and I know it will fucking hurt, but I do understand.
Luck is not on my side,
when it comes to these kind of things.
It would be better to crawl back in my cave and hide,
for the world, people, just everything.
That is the story of my live,
hiding the truth about who I am for real.
It had to be done in order to survive,
but right now it feels like an unfair deal.
Drained, emotional and a real chaos,
I really should go to sleep.
I know I will survive this loss,
but in the future my secret will be mine to keep.
Let everybody just think that I am a crazy lady,
nobody will get the chance to look behind my walls anymore.
Nobody will know the truth about me,
can't put myself trough this pain, no more.
I would rather stay alone, shatterd as I am,
than letting someone so close.
Like I did with this man,
that is the best choise.
H