Driving home,
Another day defeated..
Seeing all the laughter and the smiles,
I remember the days when I felt that..
But lately I don’t feel anything,
And sometimes it’s hard to remember why I’m doing this..
If I smile, it’s only the mimic,
Never the feeling behind it..
Not anymore..
I miss the days when life was easy,
When nothing could touch me..
Not if I didn’t want it..
Now, nothing reaches me..
Not even when I want it..
Emotions don’t come to the surface anymore,
Everything is numb, cold and emotionless..
All I feel is pain, hate and sadness..
Will this ever end?
Will it ever get easier?
Cause everyday is such a struggle,
That I doubt I’ll get through it like this..
Is it worth it?
The fight, the pain, the sadness?
I’m not the same without,
and I feel so much better with it..
I want it,
More than I want to breath..
Do I even remember the days when I used to laugh…?