Ana,
When you first entered my world five years ago,
I didn’t realize what you could do.
Since that moment on I have fought
So hard against you.

But still you are luring
Why won’t you stay away?
Whenever a weak moment comes
You push me into your way.

Your stupid way of feeling in control
Denying myself everything that my body need
I keep falling into that trap
Making me feel you’re something I can’t beat.

I want to be happy with my who I am
Your skeleton body, I do not want anymore
I shouldn’t lose any more weight
But still your place in my heart is sore.

It’s hard to say no
When I feel you everywhere
Knowing it kills my body and spirit
You are the one who’s always there

So still, I’m fighting you
For five damn years
You’re not what I want anymore
Instead of that you’re my greatest fear

You take away so much
Friends and fun
With you there’s only darkness
No love, no life, no sun.

I know you can make me feel safe.
But please, Anorexia, please stay away
I’ve build up my own life now
There’s no room here for your way.