I hate what I am. But I can't hate anything more than I hate what you are now. Because I build up all these defenses, and you are the only one who could take my walls down. You did it and you made me vulnerable. Are you happy now? I want to forget you and defend myself against you. But I can't do it alone. Sometimes it's so hard to hold on to my dream. My dream is you. I know I'll never get what I want so I'm gonna stop trying. I know I'll miss you, because I already miss you when I don't speak to you for one day. You know it's you. You know it's you who can make me smile when nobody else can. You know it's you who made me love you and your eyes won't let me go. You know it's you who made me vulnerable and you know it's you who makes me sad and angry. Why are you still in my head, why are you still in my mind? I wanna forget you, pretend like nothing ever happened. I know there's other fish in the sea who would love to swim with me. But I only want you. You're my one and only. Believe me. I did a lot of crazy things for you. Can you see it already? Because I won't do anything for you now, not anymore. I did enough. I'm tired of trying and tired of crying because of you. I find it hard to trust somebody. People always leave. Everybody hurts. Those sentences are true. And you know that. I know that you're vulnerable too. I know lots of stuff about you you couldn't even think about. I've done my research. And still I love you. Still I care. Still I long for your arms around me. Still I long for a sweet word from your lips. All I wished for christmas was you baby but you hurt me. You kill me from inside out. There's nothing I could do to change this feeling.. You make me feel sad, you make me feel the best on earth. You make me love you and I'm sick of it. Baby, I won't lose myself in you. I'm strong, yes I am. I'm strong enough to let go. It's a battle from six months now and I hate that I can't let u go. I wanna remove your number, like I did once, but that wouldn't work. I wanna delete your msn, your netlog, number, pictures.. I wanna delete everything that reminds me of you. But every little piece let's me think about you. I even uploaded ugly pics of you. BUT STILL I LOVE YOU. I scream "help" but there's nobody here anymore. You're all I see