I felt free at the time that I sold my self.
Then never ever somebody notices who I really am, I act for them to say that I was somebody that they thought I am.
In my mind it feels good to be that person because then it was easier for me to handle myself.
Now I try to find myself again, no lays no fables. But it is so hard to going see the truths I walk right in to the facts. And when I get closer to myself I got the feeling that I go farther away from the people I love.
It’s not possible that I make place in my heart for some I want to love, because I most trying to love myself first and I know that’s going to be a hard and long way.
The knowing that maybe I never get children from myself, the Birth from my baby’s they never got the chance to breathe on their own.
Howe is it ever possible to get it clear that a girl raped on her younger age to go soled herself when she’s get older?
ones I thought to be smart, I was 33 kilo on my 16 years old birthday that I asked money from the people they come to visit me that I can bay drugs behind their backs from their own money they gif me..
Is it normal that I have the feeling I can trust no one except my family, And that I get the feeling I’ve been untrue to the one I trust??
The thought that ever someone can love me is for me unbelievable, because that one deserves definitely a better and cleaner person then me.