This is where I stand,
but where do I stand?
I'm searching,
for something faliliar,
but I can't see anything.
It's all darkness around,
it feels good,
but on the other side it doesn't,
because it's to quiet,
I can hear myself thinking,
but that's what I was trying to avoid.
I walk,
step by step,
so I won't fall over,
but I still went to fast,
because suddenly I fall forward,
in a reflex,
I still can hold on to something,
but it feels bad.
As soon as I stand up,
I let go,
of whatever I'm holding,
I can't see what it is,
only the shape,
but I don't recognize it.
Is this the place,
where I'll end up,
but I can't give up,
nog now.
I focus myself on the darkness,
I stare into it,
just until I'm used to it.
Just in that moment,
I see a light,
not far away from where I'm standing.
Then I realise,
that is what I've been holding.
But things don't come back,
they're gone.