A try to explane how I feel.
If i'm with you, I feel happy and safe.
If you leave the room, I feel so sad and afraid.
I don't know why I'm afraid, but I think that....
I'm afraid that I hurt my self.
That I'm groing to be selfish.
That I leave you, without saying goodbye.
I'm afraid that I can't controle myself anymore.
That someone else see my tears, my pain and hatred.
If I see a knife, I feel afraid, I feel anger.
Why do I always think of the first time that I hat hurt myself?
It sounds stranges, but when I see my wrist is bleeding, then I'm not afraid anymore.
Because I know then, that I won't hurt myself deeper.
Because I can't controle the pain anymore.
Then I remember that I was groing to be selfish again.
Then I feel angry.
But if I just tell someone how I feel,
I grow up, to a girl that is waiting to see someone that she loves very much.
Written for you.....