It's too hard to pick a side
without the danger of a landslide
caused by the clashes of desire.
What to do, until I retire?
My heart says to go on stage,
but my parents think about my wage.
I don't want to be locked up in a cage.
I don't want to be a mathematical mage.
The choice is so hard to make.
The consequences won't be fake.
My entire future is at stake.
This is burning inside me, like the venom of a snake.
Answers for my questions are not given.
By fear, curiosity and time I'm driven
into a quest to find out who I really am.
Hopefully I will see the true me.
They say that I'm shining like a phoenix,
but is this not one of their mind tricks?
To make the wrong call,
so you go in a unknown free fall?