My Little heartbreak
They said you were smart, and quick on the uptake
I'm shamed to admit I thought you were, too
Unnoticed by you, my little heartbreak,
I did naught but think: if only you knew
The times I looked up, and hoped you would see me
The times you looked down, a sting I adored
Yet now that you're gone, I beg you to free me,
To bring me a knife, a dagger or sword
No clean death for me, I will find peace in dirt
Your torment was worse than dying, you see
You always rejoiced, eyes sparkling with mirth
In knowing you hurt me; and true that may be
You never percieved that I hated you not
In silence I revelled: you did notice me!
While basking in hope, I simply forgot
That aged as I was, you'd not ever see
The person I was - so young yet tenacious,
With mind of my own - to you I was young,
And that said it all: you were just gracious
To even pay heed to slanderous tongue
You brushed off, ignored, you hit me with silence,
Then sneered, even smirked, belittled and mocked
Whenever I tried, you went on defence
My efforts were thwarted, intrusion you blocked
I finally gave up, discouraged and tattered
While you saw me yield, inwardly I roared
Though you'd never see, this was what mattered:
In daylight I cried, in dreams my heart soared
Yet now you are dead, not even remembered
By those who had claimed to care for your fate
I've made up my mind... Cold, bleak December
Will comfort the world, for me it's too late.