I want to run
Away from this world, these thoughts, this place
Hating myself, feeling this pain
I feel tears streaming down my face
Keeping up appearances for everyone
To see a happy girl, smiling, willing to live
Hiding her thoughts, her feelings deep inside
So they don’t see I have nothing left to give
It hurts, when people don’t notice
Though it’s me who’s keeping them from seeing
Feels as if they don’t care what happens to me
But I’m preventing myself from being
Every single day is a struggle
Have to wear this mask to hide the real me
But days are getting longer, and I’m getting weaker
It won’t take long until they’ll start to see
I want to prevent that from happening
I’d rather die than hurting anyone I know
Because what I’m going through is my own fault
And I hate this, but I can’t let it go
I don’t want to show people I’m not holding on
I’m falling deeper every single day
And there’s nobody to pull me up, who cares enough
I understand that, who am I to expect that from they?
I’m not worth this life, I hate myself so much
Destroying my body in every single way
So many feelings, too much for me to handle
And I don’t know what to do anymore, can’t make them go away
I just hate myself, feel like I’m worth this pain
My body, so damaged by scars and wounds everywhere
No one knows it is this worse, cause I hide them all
And that I’m doing this to myself, I don’t even care
If I could go away, be gone forever
Leave my pain and troubles behind without hurting anyone
I would do it in an instant, right away
No one would see me again, I would be gone
But the though that I would hurt anybody
Even though I don’t see how it would
Prevents me from killing myself, and I wish someday
I’d really want to live, like everyone should