If I had to choose between the rush of the ocean
or the warm breeze of the forest, I couldn't,
The rush would kill me and the breeze would
make my death perfectly nice
I blow myself into the world and I don't understand where I am going
Decisions I make hit me in the face, right out of touch out of place
I never needed anyone to relay on I never needed myself
Before I rush down to the cold and wet floor, I'll take myself down
You never have to tell me where I should and should not go
You never have to blame me for the pain you've caused me
You never have to blame me for the pain you feel
You never have to take me down, before you will, I already am
Don't try to hurt me, I'm so much better at that
Hurting is my second name, So excuse me but it's a genetic issue
I'm well known with medications, don't try to prefend me
I can take it all and knowing that it'll never kill me
You already have
Every crack in the hour is one in my soul
Every word is one cut in my heart too much
I have tried to hate you
I have tried to kill you
I have tried to throw you away
But the garbageman never showed up
Today is maybe a good start to not to think about tomorrow
Tomorrow might be a good day to take me up from the floor where I'm so comfortly home
And yet I return upon the wish to have forrest in the sea, and I know my home is perfectly together as I wished it to be.