Is this really the end
Filled with so much memories, yet another year gone
Met a lot of new people, of which some became my friends
Will I remain in good contact with anyone?
Scared this was the end
Afraid all the good time will never come again
Will they ever remember who I was
Or will they forget, without looking back on when
Like with A* and B*, when we had so much fun
Just with a single look laughing hysterical
Nobody else knew why, only us
Which was the funniest thing of all
Or just doing things, like playing pool
Which we now know isn’t the thing for us to do
Another reason to laugh, just trying to play pool
Never will we hit the ball, but that isn’t the clue
Going to school this year was so much fun
A wonderful group of people surrounding me
For the first time, never had this before
Just scared this will never again be
Is it just my fear of loosing people?
Am I just worried for nothing, will they stay?
Will they still want to do things with me
Although we won’t be having much contact, like we used to every day
I will certainly miss this year, most of all that have already passed
So much has happened, I will never forget
Personally had a tough year, but I had so much support
Of all those wonderful people that I’ve met
C*, you’re just so honest and true
I always knew you’re were there for me
You were the one who made me trust people easier
Because you talked to me, made me feel your trust and let me be
That’s the reason I trusted you with my problem
First my eating, which you noticed and you confronted me
I admit at first I didn’t want to fix this thing
But now, because of you, I realise it isn’t good for me
I want to apologize for lying to you in one moment
I just wasn’t thinking about what I was doing to you
I understand and now appreciate you got help for me
It was the best thing for everyone, the right thing to do
Later, when I told you my other problems
I realize it wasn’t easy to deal with, I can imagine
I just want to thank you for still being there
And not letting me fall, like I was scared of then
The one thing I regret was not being able to fully be there for you
Always busy with my own stuff
Wish I wouldn’t have them, so I could concentrate on other things
Like my friendships, think I didn’t do that enough
And D*, you were also there for me
In the beginning trying to force me to eat again
You realized it wasn’t working, and didn’t talk about it
Until the moment I talked to you about it then
Since that moment you were involved again
Not forcing me, but I could talk to you
Though I didn’t think you understood it
Still there when I felt I wouldn’t go through
With much interest, you talked to me
Wanting to know everything at the start
Later I didn’t want to talk about it anymore
I felt like we were growing apart
I regret not ever getting to know you well
When I think about it, there is not much about you that I know
You didn’t tell me a lot, seemed it was always about me
I regret that, and I wish I could tell you so
All I can say now is that I hope
We all can remain good friends
That we can always count on each other
And that our friendship never ends
I hope I can do the same for you
All that you did for me this year
I know I could not have wished for better friends
Than you to appear
Maybe I feel this way because I never had these kind of relations
With people before, never did I trust them enough
To let them into my life, show them how I feel
And to this day I still think it’s tough
But I think this year has done a lot of good for me
Learned so much, I can’t even say
I wouldn’t want to miss this for anything
I will always remember when I look back someday
~A*, B*, C* en D* zijn goede vrienden van mij, en dit zijn niet hun echte initialen omdat ik niet wil dat het herkent kan worden..~