I’m nervous
So afraid of what tomorrow will bring
Still not sure if I will go
I’d rather forget everything

Afraid of what they’ll say
What I’ll have to do
Scared I’ll have to let go
Of control, and cutting too

But that is the reason
I asked for help in the first place
Why then am I hesitating?
Have to move on into the next phase

Why am I so nervous?
Don’t want to remember my past
Talk about the reasons
No, this is going to fast

I’m not ready for this step
I can’t talk about this, not now
It scares me, and makes me nervous
I should do this, but I don’t know how

This is the right thing to do
Deep in my mind I know
So there is no other choice
Tomorrow I’ll have to go

Even if I’m scared
This is something I have to do
For myself, for everyone involved
To my own self I must be true

Have to accept the fact
That I will lose control, for a while
And that it won’t be easy
But one day..I will truly be able to smile


“you fear to lose control, when all you really lose is fear”