Three whole days
Resisted the urge to grab the razorblade
But it wasn’t easy
And it won’t last long I’m afraid
How did I do it?
Tried to find other ways to lose the craving
To my knowledge didn’t succeed
Still I didn’t hurt myself, that’s a weird thing
Was I just too busy
Too preoccupied to think about the pain?
or was there really no need?
I wouldn’t know, there’s no way to explain
I shouldn’t even stop to think
About why I didn’t do it
I didn’t, and that’s good
Does there have to be a reason, I do like to quit
I’m confused
Don’t even know why
Ah well, it doesn’t matter
It’s good I had a try
A try to stop this thing
And it seems to be working for now
Don’t know how, that’s a bit strange
But well, it’s good anyhow
Hope to go on like this
So I will never do it again
Still it will never be gone
Never will be like it was back then
That’s not what I want anyway
This is who I am
And I have to accept that fact
Even if I don’t give a damn
I do have another obsession
That is taking my full attention for the moment
Maybe that’s the reason
I just had no time to spent
Now I really must stop
To think about reason I had, or did not
I’m glad I stopped for three days
I’ll try to hold on, it’s worth a shot