Insecure
Should I go through with this?
Or am I to stubborn
To see that I have no choice?
This can’t go on
That’s for sure
But I don’t seem to realize this
I don’t think there is a cure
A cure
Is that what I need to find?
It’s just me being stupid
Why do I need others for my peace of mind?
I’m hesitating
I could just go and see how it turns out
But then again do I need it?
It’s so confusing, It makes me want to shout
Don’t know what to do
Mixed feelings in my mind
Go and feel weak
Refuse and then what will I find?
There is no way I can do this alone
I already tried and failed to do that
So then why shouldn’t I go?
If it makes me stop feeling this way in my head
It just fear speaking
I know it’s the right thing to do
It just that feeling in my mind
That is making me hesitate to go through
Knowing and feeling
Seem to be two separate things inside
The one is stubborn and makes me feel bad
The other is honest and turns on the light
But it seems that these two parts inside my head
Are trading places every once in a while
So I don’t know which one is which at the moment
This is confusing and I can’t no longer smile
My feeling..is it telling me the truth?
Right now I have no clue
I’ll just have to trust both sides
And I hope I can figure out what to do