For whole my childhood I thought it was my fault
I was living with a fucking guilt feeling
And now there’s a wound that isn’t heeling
You’ve destroyed my life
Made me scared every single day
I wished you’d die away
Every single day you made my mum cry
She lost her conscientious
And leaned on me all the time
I was just al little child
Afraid of this life
And now you’re gone it’s still going on
She’s leaning on my shoulders
And I can’t let her down
Trying to push her away
Every single day
I try to make her live without me
I don’t want her to see
That I can’t live with such a responsibility
And it’s all your fault
How do you dare even try to forget the past
It won’t go away
It will always stay
You act like you were always the good one
But with me it won’t work
Now I grew up
And I know it wasn’t always you
My own mum who I love with whole my heart
Doesn’t seem to be the person I thought
But you know even how hard you try to make her bad in my eyes
It won’t work
‘Cause you’ve destroyed me
My whole childhood is gone
Can’t you see
You took my life away from me
Because of you I’m scared
Scared of this life and everything it’s giving me
I lived my childhood with a feeling that I’d destroyed your relationship
And somehow there’s still that feeling
A wound that isn’t heeling
I’m living on my own now
My own world and my own life
Without you in it
You’ve destroyed my whole childhood
I won’t let you destroy the rest of it
And my mum isn’t keeping her head up
She’s falling apart
Every single day
I need to face
What you did to us
Her tears are making me sad
And I want her to be glad
But I can’t live with she always leaning on my shoulders
I did that for to many years
It’s to hard
I need to live my own life
I always supported you
When I was falling apart by myself
Mum, mum, mum
I still don’t understand
I was there next to you with every step you took
And now I just can’t get any support of you
You don’t want me to be the one I am
I am sorry but this is what it is
I’m this girl standing in front of you
Loving this person
I know you don’t want to face it
But this is who I am
I’m sorry but this is how I will live my life
Mum, mum, mum
You can’t lean on my anymore
Dad, dad, dad
You’ve destroyed us
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