What's the way to handle this pain?
Should I stay awake all night?
Should I laugh or cry
It's driving me insane..

I just don't wanna know the truth
I rather live in a lie
'cause everything is falling apart
and I don't know why..

It's so hard to understand
Why you left me here alone..
God, why aren't you doing anything?
you just sit there up your stupid golden throne

I'm dying, can't you see?
This is tearing me apart
But after all what happend.. I want you to know
You're still inside my heart

It's really getting silent now..
Everybody is asleep
But I'll stay awake all night
thinking of feelings I've hidden so deep

The paper is starting to get wet now..
I finally started to cry
I know it.. God hates me
like a lot of people do
But that ain't bothering me at all..
I cry because I lost you

I thought this love would never end
And that we would be together for eternity
now I'm so scared
cause all of my dreams 've fallen apart
I don't dare to close my eyes
cause when I do
I see your eyes, all filled with tears for me

But please don't you feel sorry, lovely boy..
All I want to see
is that your life turns out happy
just like I thought it would be..

So don't think I'll ever forget
You'll allways be in my heart
I love you more than anything in this universe
I just didn't thought we would ever be apart..

Miss you..