Now things seem fine and it does feel special.
But i'm looking for things that can really
give me hope in life, in the world that I see.
The tainted, cruel, f*cked up and violent world.
I can only think of what has been and what I have
become. Experience is probably not what makes a
smart person, a pure and understanding being. As I look
around in this place, it all seems so easy. But I know
that if I only look through this simple world, I will
see the lies, the corruption that feeds this world.
Why can't human kind be without pain and sufferga?
Is it really that hard to see, to understand that this is
not the way to get along. The words I think are to much
to say or write. I wish that for one day the whole
world would see everything the way I do.
Because od this agonizing knowledge I feel like
dropping down on my knees and scream it out
until my trhoat ruptures and bursts out of me. And
still I wonder why I even care. Why do I get
these chances? Why did I get a secondchance
for these mistakes I made? One thing is for sure, this
time i'm going to do all I can, give it all I got, to
do it right this time. To make it perfect. God forgive
me for my mistakes, for every fault I have made.
I have learned and became smarter. But I wish
that I could erase those mistakes.
It's still because of my friends i'm still
here. I can't show them my true weakness. They
may not be harmed by my mistakes. I love them
with all my heart and thank you for this all.
Especialy you, and you know who I mean by that.
May we continue until eternity ends and the
light becomes dark. Let this not be for the time being.
Thank you for all this
and thank you for you
...To Be Continued, once again...