My heart closed with thousand chains
She broke them one by one
The effect she had on my life
Can never be undone
She was the first one I really trusted
The first one I showed the real ‘me’
Before that day I never felt love
She make my mind feeling free
I thought I was a waist off time
So I kept cutting with a knife
She mend so much to me
Because of her I stayed alive
When I was with her I felt save
It was obvious how much she cared
I was to afraid to get hurt
For losing her I was just to scared
One moment I decided
I had to drift her away
While I knew I would hurt us both
It wasn’t easier to stay
I hoped she was to obstinate
To notice what I said wasn’t true
It was the first time I lied to her
But I didn’t know what else to do
I saw her almost every day
And after a while I only felt regret
Her warmth and beautiful eyes
How could I ever forget?!
She thought I hated her
That really make me cry
I became more depressed
There was a time I wanted to die
Time past by and I received some help
My mind finally cleared
I knew it was probably better without her
But a life without her I still feared
Slowly it felt better between us
She wished me a lot of luck
We had to say goodbye
And she gave me the most loving hug
I’m still missing her
When I’m sad I fantasise she holds me tight
Without wasting to many tears
I fight myself trough the night
She saved my life
I’m very thankful for that
she make my world a happier place
Now I’m much less sad
I’m thinking about my future again
Because of her I have one
My heart is now open
It’s time to go on
No more knifes in my closet
For her I throw them all away
She’s out of my sight
But in my heart she will always stay!
Still I wish for a hug
But I know that will only happen when I’m dreaming
In my memories she will always be an angel
I only hope my tears once stop streaming
For the one that owns my heart forever,
the one who can light up the dark without saying a word: My Muse