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I'm not an reguraly obsessed person
and I don't say pretty words unmeant
I'm not a handsom angel in disguise
but still I am, asking for your hand
Hold on to my love and never let go
join me here, above, in the heaven I know
Look me in the eyes and baby, please see
Distanced, is what we are not supposed to be
I'm pulling myself up now, by the strings of faith I have
and the sun, it seems to be shining whenever I want
I've been crying for those who're gone and those I've left
and it takes me hella much to get myself up when I can't
I never had written, a poem based on truth
there's not one which told my story straight
I never 'had' someone before, and now there's you
poisoned by the bittersweet cookies that we ate
There is not a verse that made me feel better as I was writing
the words just carved everything deeper and deeper in my soul
There is not a line that made me want to stop hiding
the words just digested my mind and my body as a whole
I never did told one my feelings, never face to face
I was always waiting 'till it would slightly disappear
I wouldn't have to think about it, I wouldn't have to say
I was so damn anxious that it would release my fear
Hold on to my love and never let go
join me here, above, in the heaven I know
Look me in the eyes and baby, please see
that we belong, and we're meant to be
Together, because of the smile we can create by night
because I can't stand to live another day without you
Together, because of the pain which we'll no longer have to fight
because I would really know not what I do..
I'm so fucking lost without you..
18.05.2005
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In plaats van dat de gedichten weergaven hoe ik me voelde, ging ik juist steeds meer naar datgeen wat ik opschreef leven. En wie wil er nou leven richting verdriet, verlies, valse hoop en zelfs zelfmoord?
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Bye for now
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