feel like an angel without his wings
not able to fly
to fly away from this pain
trapped in this circle of life
got lost in this cold place called world
lost my wings a long time ago
lost the warmth in my heart along with my wings
lost my selfrespect and trust in love
love in all possible ways
love from; my family, a friend, a partner, ...
hiding my pain and sheltering under a fake happy mask
caused the lost from my wings
build a wall around me
thinking that it would protect me from the others
hoping to protect me from more pain
but it only left me with loneliness
it got me more insecure and left me with less trust in people
can't go on without my wings
lost my faith in life
tried to end my life a several times
wasn't seeying a reason to stay anymore
looks like the devil was silently waiting for my weak moments
and slowly he got hand of my broken soul
and now he's playing with my life
he tries to control all my thinking and acting
he makes me feel so empty inside so lifeless
forces me to see myself as a piece of shit
has me in his power
giving me thoughts of selfdistruction and thoughts of suicide
he conseals the meaning of life with
remending me every day of all my failures over and over again
don't know how to win this fight from him
don't want to give up in this fight
to let him win
cause sometimes i feel a little flame burning in my heart
and i can feel some lost warmth again
but he's such a genious in
letting me believe that i'm not worth it, to continue with living
that it would be better for everyone if
i'd sacrifise my life
don't know what to think
don't know what's real
have no common sence anymore
can't think clear
can't trust myself
somebody plz help me
i can't survive it on my own
can't win this fight all alone
is this my punishment for all my mistakes?
losing my wings, losing my will to live
or has this life in miserie his own reason
i don't know what's right
got lost in this black world
and i can't find my way back home