i can feel it in me
this nervous obsession
controlling me
touching the skin that is mine to wear
how can something this tender carry my name
no desire towards the eyes from outside
i wish for none of it's intentions
contradiction in the words who've been said
only valueness left after memorizing all
in my arms the beauty slept
she gave me more than she could
more of us than i ever dared to dream of
i felt her sensual looks haunted by confusion
took it all for granted as it felt like could not be
but then not able anymore to bare the burning question
she made me care like never did before
sadly enough i let her in even twice
once my words got spoken out
she had to choose her answer
full contrary to all that had been done
there the feedback took it's deadly form
i gave no more than she let me take
yet, her message was to forget
now the history breaks me down takes me in
the only thing i really wanted is not here
convinced about one constantly stabbing thought
my person is not worth it to give up her fears
- This poem got no end, makes me sick to write, to be continued, no end no switch. Well, i couldnt end it write, coz there is no end yet as i said. -