A new year, a new start?
I wish that from the bottom from my heart,
but I know that it will not be,
it will be all the same for me.
The same old fighting against the pain,
the same old fearing to be insane,
the same old wanting to fade away,
just the same, day after day.
Probably it'll get worse, nog better,
I just feel like I don't matter,
the inside of me I want to kill,
not for the pain, nor for the thrill,
but to fade away, to be gone,
to be missing by noone...
My only wish for this new year,
fade within the snow, no fear...