Ich liebe dich... geschreven op: 20.09.2004

It is hard daddy,
I just wasn’t readdy.
It was to fast,
And I knew it coulden’t last.
I was pepaird,
Everybody was so we shared.

I woulden’t see it,
I was just al little kid.
I was thirtheen years old,
At the time that they told.
My daddy was ill and he wouldn’t get better,
That meand, that we wouldent be long togetter.

The first year I just closed my eyes,
And told myself al lot of lies.
I didn’t wanned it to know,
And didn’t wanned you to show.
‘Cause you where allways strong,
So I had to be that to, but for how long?

The decize stayed two years,
And then the voice reached my ears.
They told me that you died,
My mom came to me and she cried.
I put my arm around her shoulder,
Looked at her and i told her.
That everything would be fine,
I thoth of her heart, not mine.

She left and went down,
I looked in the mirror and felt on the ground.
He was really gone, he really did.
But I was still hard, and I wouldn’t see it.
My daddy died,
And later I cried.
It kept on raining tears from my eyes,
And in my memmories I didn’t saw any lies.

I came to the point that I was never going to see daddy again,
I would onley see the memmories, and then...
The tears made a ocean full of memmories,
From the time you where healty till you and your decize.
We had a good time, really we had.
But your decize was oh.. so sad.

You had so mutch pain inside and outside,
And in front me, you also cried.
It was hard to see you crying,
‘Cause little by little you where dying.

Right now it’s almost 2 years ago,
And now I realize and right now I know.
That your love for me, your daughter
Was more than you loved any other.

You allways said: Ich hab dich so schrecklich lieb.
Now I dream about that.. in my sleep.
You also said: Oxana du bist alles fur mich.
And I just wanne let you know daddy: Ich liebe dich!!!