i just want to be happy
it's so hard to be that way
there are so much voices in my head
who keeps telling me that i'm a bad person
that i can't do anything good
that i don't help enough
so i try to be happy
i act like i'm happy
but it is hard you know
it's like a movie where i have to play a role
i try to do things good
but it is never enough you know
it's like the world hates me
and want to punish me
and then i believe myself that i'm happy
but then the moment of truth comes
and let me see in my heart
when i see the inside of myself
i die a little bit more